14 years and a world of change

14 years ago,
when it rained,
i'd run out,
singing sappy love songs,
at the top of my lungs,
laughing and playing,
with droplets of rain.

7 years ago,
when it rained,
i sat in my car,
windows tightly shut,
stereo blasting sappy love songs,
and i thought of,
the lost past.

Today,
when it rained,
i sat near my window,
wide open,
eating hot pizza,
drinking hot tea,
and i smiled.

14 years ago,
when i thought of my love,
i gave the widest grin,
and texted him saying,
I Love You.

7 years ago,
when i thought of my lost love,
i gave myself a sad smile,
looked deep and far into the darkness,
and told myself, that it was over

Today,
i think of my love,
and how none were wrong before,
but yet,
ive finally found the right one.

14 years ago,
i would write to myself,
of all things happy.

7 years ago,
i sat there, much wiser,
less happier.

Today,
i am just me,
perfectly accepting of all that i am, and that i am not.

SR

Gratitude Day 1

Guess who's starting a gratitude Journal?

Dont quite know but i figured i could write in here everyday, if im lucky, on things that im grateful for :)

1. Im grateful that i have my parents with me and for the love only their hearts can hold  -and for my mom, for she wakes up early every single morning to cook Breakfast and Lunch for me!
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2. Im grateful that i am healthy and that i pretty much get to do what i want (although its limited cos im at work)

3. Im grateful for all the food i have access to :D

Tiny little kisses

So it started with tiny little kisses,
and i thought to myself,
well, this is way too little,
i need bigger kisses,
bigger smiles and bigger love.

Tiny little kisses and more of them,
and i thought to myself,
well, this isnt too bad,
i need more tiny little kisses,
just a smile on my face and love in your eyes.

Tiny little kisses and none of them,
and i cant stop thinking of you,
and how all i want now,
is just one tiny little kiss,
and a whole lot of you.

Its odd how i've fallen in love with those tiny little kisses now.

I'm here, Now.

Let me be,
I'm here now,
and that's all matters.

I asked for my share,
Air gave me breaths,
and a few more.

Conversing with solitude,
Heart whispered,
and now finish what you begun.

I do have to, don't I?
Over my grave,
and Inconsequential .

Nothing more,
Nothing less,
To ask for.

Let me be.

This too... shall..

Oh well,
Everyone moves on,
Everything will come to pass,
You too will darling,
You will emerge,
bruised, scathed, hurt and betrayed.

Some say if it doesn't kill you,
it only makes you stronger.
I disagree,
It kills small parts of you,
the wounds and scars masks,
the old you and turns you into,
a new person,
for better or worse, i know not.

But that's the price you have to pay,
for putting your heart out,
handing it to one so unworthy of it,
sometimes so wrong,
you don't know where it ends, nor starts.

Be calm, don't lose your peace,
for this too shall pass.