Thursday, April 5, 2012

random musings



You’re the dream,
I’ve had for days,
You’re the reality,
I want for days.

 My raindrops,
My sprinkles,
My colours,
My rainbow; you’re the shine of my life.

One day I want you far away,
So that I’ll not think of you,
The next day I want you,
So close , As my teardrops to my cheeks.

The beautiful curve,
on your lips,
Sends me deeper into oblivion.

The clothing’s on me,
Flutter when you’re close,
Caressing me,
They way my heart aches  for you to.

You’re my hero,
My sweetheart,
My fun my joy my precious,

Before I close my eyes,
I find my solace,
In your glances.
Before I pinch my self,
I kiss you,
I imagine I am.

When you move 2 seconds away from me,
Something in me shatters,
Makes me want to hold you close,
And keep you closer,
Than ever.

The journey is long,
With only blue skies companying me,
And you, my pride.

Monday, April 2, 2012

He's gone Sailing :-(

My JigliPuff has gone sailing :-(

Bye byeeee and i'll miss you, till you get back here!


and to keep myself entertained, while you're gone, i shall watch 2 movies today.

Its a tie between Muppoluthum Un Karpanaigal , Sweet Home Alabama and Due Date.

Tough times ahead, choosing which to watch.. hmmm..

Things i do, to entertain myself, when youre not here :-(

Wednesday, March 7, 2012

rain and movies


Its been a movie marathon week. Less work, more movies. I’ve even gone up to 2 movies in a night. Monday night was Big Bang Theory S5 Ep 15-18 and then Mauna Guru, Tuesday night with Ekk Mein Ekk tu and Crazy. Stupid Love, Wednesday, today , Dhobi Ghat. I don’t think I’d be able to watch another movie today. You know the feeling you get when you’ve completed a book, you’ve been reading for sometime, a book you fall in love with and make it your partner, companion. That moment when you know you’ve read the final full stop and the hollow feeling inside, which hurts and soothes at the same time. And that very feeling that doesn’t allow you to move away from it. You’d revel in the experience and reflect on all that has happened, plot, and real life. If you’ve experienced that, you truly are lucky to have found one such book. Well, it’s pretty much the same with Dhobi Ghat.

This isn’t a movie review, because I suck at it and ive got absolutely no idea how one reviews a movie. Ive got no knowledge on filmmaking and its intricacies and neither have I the capabilities of examining every single frame of the movie. I just know if it was Awesome, Good, or bat shit Bad.
Back to Dhobi Ghat, well, I’ve been putting it away for dragon years mainly because it was promoted to be a arty film, dry and an insight of the Dhobi Community, well, at least that what I understood, and I for one am not a fan of sad/ dark movies, mainly because I cry very easily.  But today I had no better option, since I was running out of movies to watch (note to self: download more movies this weekend) and I wanted to watch something Indian.

Abstract, engaging, Aamir, perfection and it leaves you blank.

I had to take a break after the movie. Went outside, saw the beautiful rain, the chill. And was reminded of my Bangalore. How we’d play in the rain EVERYTIME it rained. How carefree college life was and how its changed now, at the age of 26. Realized that the numbers doesn’t quite matter (pfft, shanky! You’re 26, not 62; stop thinking like a fossil) instead its what you make life to be that matters. Quickly locked my room and ran downstairs before I could have a change of heart.
A few wild stares and a lil psst psst from the other hostel kids. Probably wondering why this crazy woman is dancing in the rain and croaking cheesy songs (Barso re megha- guru / raindrops keep falling on my head- Butch Cassidy and the Sundance kid, Chinna china mazhaithuligal – en swasa katre, and alots of laa la laa’s). Not like I could be bothered much, but I felt pity for them though. The same people, who’d probably be updating their FB status to, wow! It’s raining outside, so nice/so cool to watch the raindrops or other equally cheesy lines, yet, they wouldn’t want to play in the rain, Sigh.

I just realized how abstract my post really is. Sheesh. Probably the Dhobi Ghat effect :p

Anyhoo, I’m a happy bee and the rain helps prioritize one’s life. I know I’d want to be happy, (always thought that qualifies as an answer to what you’d want to be in future) although completing the MSc within 18 months is very high on my wish list right now :P

Go stare at the rain if its raining over there, but, by all means, try and play in it, if you can, it’s the happiest thing to do!

Wednesday, February 8, 2012

Stuff Shanky Does


Stuff I do when I miss you :)

Ps*, if you dont get it, its (I) (Love) (You) and a little dance at the end :) :)

Monday, January 30, 2012

26 things i learnt in 26 years (25 years and 6 months rather)

Being happy certainly prompts you to write more article like stuff and being down in the dumps, more poems. Naturally. Also, being forced to write a Research proposal paper, prompts you to do everything but that. Even staring blankly at my water bottle appears more enlightening and appealing at this point. Someone, anyone at all, please remind me, why i though pursuing MSc was fun?! Blegh! And to make matters worse, Masters by Research?! Anyhoooo, coming back to the 26thing i think I've learnt.

1. Love is always fun. Life is too. Dont let anyone, absolutely anybody tell you otherwise. Suffering is never part of life's requirement. If you're down in the dumps, all you need is a smile and the attitude to pull yourself together, and be happy.

2. A day spent without laughter is a day wasted. That being said, laughing at a funeral house is wrong, do so on your own risk. Author can NOT be held responsible for any repercussions thereafter.

3. You have friends, and then you have friends who are family. You're lucky if you manage to find those who are family.

4. I love photographs, i love photographers. I love being in photographs, i love being clicked, but if there's one thing i absolutely cannot stand, is someone clicking away inanimate objects to glory while ignoring other people (esp on a tour/holiday) around them. Plain inconsiderate (especially if it goes on for hours)

5.Love thy parents. They're the best you have, will have and ever have. No replacements. Although there are some retards out there, undeserving to be parents and/or children.

6. Respect is something one commands, not demands. Respect everyone even if they dont deserve it.  Never disrespect anyone below your social status and more importantly, dont kiss ass.

7. Never intimidate or be intimidated. If there is something you can/should earn, is a persons respect and never their fear. We arent really living in some action movie/ violent video games

8. Never let anyone tell you you're not worth it. You are everything you can ever have, be happy, be glad. but more importantly, never let anyone, absolutely anyone dictate how you live. What works for one, may not work for the other, my 26, probably is you 26 not's ;-)

9. Dont get stuck in a rut. You will get bored, eventually. Dont let yourself think the rut means stability, you'l regret wasting your life there.

10. Opposites dont attract. Find someone who's like you, mad, crazy, funny or even as dead boring as you are, because even if opposites do attract (for a while) it fizzles out before you can say fizzzzz

11. Pat yourself if you're among the lucky people who's got the chance to attend college. Its probably the only place you will experience heaven on earth (you realize that later though). If you're still in college, have all the fun you can, remember to study a few days prior to the exams, but dont make that the entire agenda ;-) You'll have all your remaining donkey years to learn.

12. Never sign up for Masters by research if you hate reading journals and writing citations. Blergh!

13. Spend. Save. Money. Do not hesitate to spend money if it will make memories. Do not spend unnecessarily if it make nightmares :-p. You'll always spend when you shouldn't. there will be phases in life you'll overspend, and during moments like that, remind yourself, NEVER to have credit card :-p

14. Love your pets. Adopt if possible. Dont buy. Dont promote breeding. Dogs, in my case, as ive learnt, are probably the only creature which loves and depends on you more than you do, yourself. Reminds me of a quote i read sometime ago, it went somewhat like this, " Be the person your dog thinks you are" - Honestly, your pet thinks youre the best :-)

15.Go out, Spend time outdoors. Realise how small you are in the course of action and realise you're part of a bigger scheme of things. A small speck.

16. fall down, Bruise yourself. Have scars, they'll remind you of the good times youve had, better than photographs.

17. Never try evaluating another person, let alone judging. Also, dont bother trying to completely understand another person. Its futile, one cannot understand oneself even after all the years spent together ;-)

18. Pray. To god, a higher power, nature, mankind. To anyone. Doesn't  quite matter.As long as one is thankful and recognizes the good, the god in another. That will reduce alot of hatred, and bring you calm and peace.

19.  Pani Puri is the best street food/ snack ever created by human. Fullstop.

20.Secrets exist for a reason. You can never be (and shouldn't' too) completely transparent with another person. Some secrets are meant to stay the way they are. Forgotten over time or grained onto the heart carrying it. Dont bother making them public, no one will probably understand, neither do they need to.

21. Have all kind of friends. The quiet one, the mad one, the party animal, the stupid one. the evil one. the showoff, the holier than thou one, the happy one, the depressed one, all of them. Entertainment ;-)

22. Be positive. Surround yourself with positiveness and dont let the negative energy bog you down too long. Find yourself a little mr/miss sunshine, oozing with positivity and latch yourself onto him/her, and never let go ;-)

23. Drink. Be merry. In moderation. Drink, Get drunk, Pass out.  Drink, Fall asleep. Drink, discuss politics, talk, share ideas. The conversations you'll have while drunk, has no match and you'll never have the frank carefree, honest dialogues sans alcohol. Drink, but know when to stop. Drink, dont kill your liver.

24. The joy of laughing while sitting on a tree with your best friend/ love/ anyone, doesn't change with your age bracket. Probably increase but never will decrease. Never stop climbing tree's and sitting on the branches. Its fun and life has a different perspective from that view.

25. I'll forever have a book in hand. Wherever i go. I cannot give away my storybooks, Even if i will probably not read it ever, anymore. They take you to a whole new world,without you having to move even an inch. They save you from conversation you wish to avoid ;-), awkward social pleasantries, boredom and sometimes even brings you closer to people :-)

26. Eat, gobble, speak about food, cook, eat, plan what to eat, where to eat, make food plans, food holiday. eat. eat some more and be happy. Try new food (although im a creature of habit and always tend to stick to the safer bet- doesnt quite matter since happy child loves eating and i can always sample some from him). Lose your way trying to look for food, find new food places in the process. Eat and be thankful.

These probably are the few things im passionate about (considering how i wrote these down instead of the others, and although there are many other things ive learnt, they well, remain secret ;-) )

Its 4 freaking am and i havent completed my proposal yet! Why shanky why?! FTW..

-.-