Gratitude Day 1

Guess who's starting a gratitude Journal?

Dont quite know but i figured i could write in here everyday, if im lucky, on things that im grateful for :)

1. Im grateful that i have my parents with me and for the love only their hearts can hold  -and for my mom, for she wakes up early every single morning to cook Breakfast and Lunch for me!
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2. Im grateful that i am healthy and that i pretty much get to do what i want (although its limited cos im at work)

3. Im grateful for all the food i have access to :D

Tiny little kisses

So it started with tiny little kisses,
and i thought to myself,
well, this is way too little,
i need bigger kisses,
bigger smiles and bigger love.

Tiny little kisses and more of them,
and i thought to myself,
well, this isnt too bad,
i need more tiny little kisses,
just a smile on my face and love in your eyes.

Tiny little kisses and none of them,
and i cant stop thinking of you,
and how all i want now,
is just one tiny little kiss,
and a whole lot of you.

Its odd how i've fallen in love with those tiny little kisses now.

I'm here, Now.

Let me be,
I'm here now,
and that's all matters.

I asked for my share,
Air gave me breaths,
and a few more.

Conversing with solitude,
Heart whispered,
and now finish what you begun.

I do have to, don't I?
Over my grave,
and Inconsequential .

Nothing more,
Nothing less,
To ask for.

Let me be.

This too... shall..

Oh well,
Everyone moves on,
Everything will come to pass,
You too will darling,
You will emerge,
bruised, scathed, hurt and betrayed.

Some say if it doesn't kill you,
it only makes you stronger.
I disagree,
It kills small parts of you,
the wounds and scars masks,
the old you and turns you into,
a new person,
for better or worse, i know not.

But that's the price you have to pay,
for putting your heart out,
handing it to one so unworthy of it,
sometimes so wrong,
you don't know where it ends, nor starts.

Be calm, don't lose your peace,
for this too shall pass.

Day 2 : What’s something your parents used to say to you as a child that you promised yourself you’d never say—but now you catch yourself saying all the time?

So well, i wrote a whole long post and didn't click save :(
These are reasons why i dont blog for  long time. That heartbreak moment when you realise all your words were in vain.
But anyhoo, shanky is stronger that all of this.
I figured i'd write on this today, just cause.

What’s something your parents used to say to you as a child that you promised yourself you’d never say—but now you catch yourself saying all the time?

Its quite an emotional write to be honest. Ive never wanted children for 3 reasons.

1. Im selfish, i value my freedom more than i should, if i want kids.

2. They may turn out to be rotten apples

3. There were certain things/manner on which my parents brought me up that made me not want any of mine for the fear of repeating th same mistake.

That being said, my folks are lovely people, they've given me th freedom and confidence to do anything my heart wished for. They've given all of us, to their best capability, financial freedom.  They have given us so much love and care over all these years.

If i had to choose one thing i thought never say but i find myself saying now, it probably would be 'i know'. As a child it killed so many conversations and i stopped trying to put my point across because they'd always say i know and make me seem silly. I catch myself saying it sometimes and i always end up feeling quite terrible afterwards. Its something i constantly have to work on and i hope i never make anyone feel th way th 8 year old me felt that one day.

Moving on to a much lighter note.
Ms.SS said behenc**d. That woman cracks me up