14 years and a world of change

14 years ago,
when it rained,
i'd run out,
singing sappy love songs,
at the top of my lungs,
laughing and playing,
with droplets of rain.

7 years ago,
when it rained,
i sat in my car,
windows tightly shut,
stereo blasting sappy love songs,
and i thought of,
the lost past.

Today,
when it rained,
i sat near my window,
wide open,
eating hot pizza,
drinking hot tea,
and i smiled.

14 years ago,
when i thought of my love,
i gave the widest grin,
and texted him saying,
I Love You.

7 years ago,
when i thought of my lost love,
i gave myself a sad smile,
looked deep and far into the darkness,
and told myself, that it was over

Today,
i think of my love,
and how none were wrong before,
but yet,
ive finally found the right one.

14 years ago,
i would write to myself,
of all things happy.

7 years ago,
i sat there, much wiser,
less happier.

Today,
i am just me,
perfectly accepting of all that i am, and that i am not.

SR